Should I be happy or disappointed?

Today was my NAPFA test. How should I start? K I know. Let's start at 3.00pm reporting time. I was late for 5 minutes, but when reached there I saw so many people dunno doing what. And the briefing was already on, and half the time I couldn't make a word of it. So went to change instead. After that dunno what to do, and 10 mins later I realised we had to fill in an OAS. okay, so fill here fill there, take weight and height, hand in, then dunno what to do already. 15 mins later another briefing started. Still I couldn't hear clearly wtf those people was saying. Anyway the next thing I realised warming up started. Ok before I knew it, it was over. So stupid sia dunno what kind of lousy warming up they doing. I could have spent those time where I dunno what to do, to do proper warming up and stretching. Kao. After that we just sat at the spectator seats for another 10mins before proceeding to the first station. Already wasted so much time and not properly warmed up and felt sleepy. sucks. Now for the results. Standing Broad Jump: 229cm. D grade!!!!! Man I thought I could at least get 3 points with considerable ease for this, but I fared so badly! Never have I gotten a D grade before. Some more is jumping. Hai.....So disappointed. There goes my gold.....Next, Sit and Reach: 40-something. I didn't know how much cos the tester helped us to cheat and get 50cm. ahah. This one also I thought I could clear the 5 points easily. But i think my own score was quite bad. Hai.....Should have done more stretching during Karate. And after that my hamstrings were hurting already. Pull-up: 13 without kicking. Could have done more but stopped at 9 to catch a breathe. Wasted a lot of energy and hands were beginning to wet. So couldn't continue after 13. They should or I should have brought a towel or something to grip on. Hai.....Shuttle run: I took 3 attempts in total. Damn it. First try run halfway my shoe flew off. Not counted. Second time I ran with my socks. And I slipped a bit here and there - 10:8seconds. The tester told me to try again. So after a while I retook with my friend's shoes. Good grip there, but last lap it came off again. But clocked a 9.8s. So okay no need to redo haha. I aimed a B for this, but got an A so i'm quite satisfied. Yay. Sit-ups: 57. Haha was doing well all the while but left last 20seconds and I felt a bit sian so stopped at 50. until my friend shouted at me to carry on and I only did 7 more cos the momentum wasn't there already. Maybe could have done 70 if chiong all the way. ahahah i'm so dumb. Stupid boy. Now the worst nightmare: 2.4km! Omg I was really nervous about it cos I soooo long never train running already. In fact I was really not in the mind to run and when the signal was given to run, I had the thought that I shouldn't be running for a stupid test like this. Dunno why I felt this way but I really wanted to stop. But something made me carry on as I see two of my friends zooming off ahead. I just ran. All the while my mind was thinking of her. And I just ran and ran until I reached the u-turn point and felt as though the distance was so short. I was quite delighted to see my friend passing by me. So I turned and continued running. I felt that I couldn't disappoint her, ahha, dunno for wat feel this way but still I felt it. So I ran some more. And suddenly I saw some people running at a right further lane towards my direction. I thought how come still have to run there? And again I wanted to stop but felt that I would be a wimp and lose out if i didn't see for myself where I should be running to. So I ran. And finally I saw one in-charge and was gestured to turn left into the bridge. Boy I was so happy that I carried on and the thought that I was about to finish the run was overwhelming. At the bridge, I sprinted quite a bit wanting to overtake the last person in front of me, but he turned and saw me catching up and suddenly he just ran off so quickly! Damn it I felt like crap sia. Still thought I could at least overtake another person and yet he had to run so fast and demoralise me. I slowed down a lot but continued jogging until I could see the finishing point. And I sprinted again. I couldn't believe myself. In the end I finished at the 8th position out of the whole 200+ cohort. I'm so proud of myself sia. Though I couldn't check the timing, I felt pleased that I did well for something I felt I was weak at. Karate has really shaped me into a man with strong will and determination and hidden prowess. hahaha. I shall continue to give my best during training and spreading Karate. Anyway after the run I was so exhausted but I didn't sit down leh. haha. And my legs still had the.....I think inertia cos I saw my friends leaving and I ran to catch up with one of them. I felt such power in my legs like never before that I thought I could do another 1km. Then we walked back to the sports hall together. Thanks to her and Karate, I did something which I thought I couldn't. So should I be happy or disappointed? HAha even better, after resting for a while, the guys suggested playing basketball. ahahaha. The time was already 7pm and I couldn't make it back to ska to help in the adult grading. So decided to join them lah. haha anyway so long never play bball already. Walk halfway I got distracted by some girls playing captain's ball. wahhaah so sat down and watched a bit until my friend got fed up. After one match, I was out of the match and decided to buy some drinks. Had to walk back to the sports hall lor. over there I saw the volleyball people. Wow the girls team is very strong! In fact can equal the guys in my opinion. Was mesmerized by their teamwork and techniques and yes some of them are good looking that I sort of forgot to go back to the game. But eventually I went back and continued playing. Decided to play ABC with a few guys while waiting for the next match. Gosh my shooting sucks! 90% of the time I missed! Dick lah. But after watching so many ball games like captain's ball lah, netball lah, volleyball lah, basketball lah, floorball lah, soccerball lah, ??? I realise I miss playing them. Hmm holidays must organise a game ourselves.
Tomolo whole body gonna ache like hell already. And another nightmare. Supervisor wants to see our project. He should kiss my ass. Today supposed to meet at 1.30pm but the email didn't reach him. Then I bumped into him at about 1.15pm. He didn't receive nvm, but he was giving me excuses not to meet my group although he was already outside the lab and his eyes were so big when he heard about the 1.30 thing. Come on lah a few minutes thing can kill you u ah. Then he asked me a lot of questions and i had to lie that we have something good to show him. If he had gone in then at least I would be more at ease since I have something not really good to show. Now how to rush the shit out. I was beginning to feel some hope in my FYP but now this had to happen. I think I'm going to fail again. And then Friday evaluator's meeting. ahhahaa this will be the last and then 2 weeks later will be the final presentation. Good luck man.
A lot of people say I have so much to blog. I also dunno why, probably im more in touch with my inner self? But actually my blog write here write there mostly also similar content leh. ahah.
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