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Hmm 1st things 1st, the title has got no association with this post. It's becoming quite a chore to think of titles now. ahahah. so lazy.
Super sian sia today still have to go school for make up lesson. Not enough sleeeeeeeeeppppppp. But i still went 1 hr earlier to do my project. and stayed for another hr after lesson. i've just managed to code some rubbish which makes sense already. but its still incomplete and yet to be tested. hopefully it works cos next week have to show already. don't think i'm gonna continue tonight cos later got taekwondo olympics! already missed two telecasts. think tomolo afternoon's also cannot watch. so tonight must watch. i'll make it my mid-year resolution. yes!
ugh i feel so sticky. damn bloody hot day again. just had my dinner and i'm going to bathe soon. yes! time to wash away all the things that spoil my day again. yes!
was watching channel 8's yi tian tu long ji just now. haha i think its time for more professional martial artists to step up yeah. where have all the kungfu buggers disappeared to?!!?!? i can hardly see good fighting choreography nowadays. alamak kungfu show find people who knows kungfu to act lah. find all the pretty and handsome ou xiang for wat. they look like children playing mighty morphin power rangers sia. if not for the computerised effects i think it would be worst, cos mainly the effects of the sword flying here and there will cover the actor's actions and expressions. yeah so it's better. also the storyline is almost reduced to a new story altogether. dunno what the director rushing for why shoot the show in such a rush. i've always imagined myself to be a character in martial art flicks. then i can control a sword without wielding it and it would be like flying around in such a cool way. wow. and then i also possess good internal strength and qing gong whereby 1 step i take will bring me 80m (not 100m cos must be realistic) away from the starting point and then i also can hit an opponent without bodily contact. wow. it all sounds soooo cool. and my dream character will be one where i possess very high skills but die in order to save many ppl and then i get honoured by all for thousands of years. wow. i'm just dreaming. but i really hope to put what i've achieved in martial arts and display it in big screen. i respect bruce lee very much. he died exactly 11 years before i was born on 20th july. this year is his 30th death anniversary. he was a great martial artist, however, he went overboard, and partly due to this, he supposedly comitted suicide. pity.....oh yeah i realise during this month more ppl pass away. peace be with them.....
k lah dunno how i ended up toking about ppl dying also. gtg bubbye.

Jady is in destructive mode.....

Muahahahahah, I think i'm going bonkers. When I'm crazy I do crazy stuffs. Sounds logical right? Hmm maybe I'm still not crazy enough. Well while I'm in destructive mode I've already torn a seat from a chair, damaged my lab's window blinds, elbowed a soap dispenser till soap dried from it (I really regret this cos the cleaner must have cleaned till she dulan), punched and kicked so many things including people, cursed and sweared for no reason, and more. Stay tuned for more. In the meantime I hope nothing and nobody is and will be damaged. Wth am I talking about. Hmm I think I'm crazy.
But i'm happy. In life the one most important thing is to be happy. No matter what's the reason; be it that you're rich, you've done something good, etc. There's always a reason to be happy. The reason why i'm happy is because I saw her today. Even though its short and didn't really follow the plan to walk around. But it's good enough. Talking about this, today was CCN day. Probably the last for me. Haha. But every year always the same things. Maybe even worse. Omg the first thing when I stepped into Business school my sec sch friend shouted for me to buy her chocolates. Actually not really chocolates but strawberry coated with chocolate. I thought wtf lah I was only intending to go for lunch and then this girl comes and ask me to buy the strawberries for $1.50!!!!! Some more the strawberry is cut into half. So one satay stick total is 1 1/2 strawberries coated with strange tasting melting chocolate and beads of condensaton, if u know what i mean. Yah water is what i'm talking about. K lah charity charity lor, but further down I saw the same crap selling at 50cents per strawberry. GrrRR. Then went down to have lunch and was sort of disturbed by a band. Disturbed means irritating feedback from the speakers and I couldn't understand a single thing from their mouths. Dunno is it their mic or what. But their instruments were played quite well lah. I also bought a drink at IT school. Haha 7 of us also dunno what we were drinking. Seems like some kind of mocktail which consists mainly of ice and water. And the stall tenders so blur one. So many of them there, but most of them don't do anything. One making the drinks, dunno who taking orders, and I know most of them are just standing around. So the guy mixing the drinks was spilling the syrup all over the table and seemed as though the mixer was gonna fly off any moment. And the most ridiculous thing was he didn't really know what syrup to mix with what. Haha. I told him to relax and take his time, but he ignored me. Kan. Maybe he thinks he can do it, so ok lor i dun bother so much also. Nvm lah, charity mah. Then hor, I also got approached by ppl I know who usually dun even bother to look at me, asking me to buy their stuffs. How practical. Hai ppl nowadays ah.....dunno what to say sia. Maybe they are stressed like I am. School sucks totally. I've already made preparations for the worst. And i am quite confident that i will retain.
Someone actually said I looked like 16 years old. Lmao. Ppl usually say i'm 20+. hahaha i think something is really happening to me.

Low.....

This must be the worst day of the week. I feel sooooooo demoralized. Was almost late for Karate just now. So by the time I reached SKA I was disorientated. Didn't have time to warm up properly and had to take the rest for warm up. By then I was really tired already. So no mood and energy to do properly. And I felt my joints were sooo stiff. Then I wasn't quite happy with the performance of the students and sounded irritated. So I think my instructor noticed both signs and wanted me to teach the beginners instead of training. Ok. I almost blew my top teaching just 4 of them. Actually is only 1 who is causing the problem, but on the whole I was really fed-up already. Then my instructor came over and scolded me what was I teaching and why did I take 45mins and still they can't do a proper stance. Duh he didn't have to embarass me in front of them lah. I tried already what. Some more those are not my students, they were taught by you all along leh. So who's fault is that? But what can I do with 45mins when that guy can't even differentiate his left from his right? And he's always looking here and there and dunno looking at what but dun wan to look at his own posture. Worse still he was trying to show another beginner this and that. ArGh. Then I cannot don't bother about him cos there's only 4 of them and I have no excuse to ignore any of them. So throughout the 1 1/2 hrs I was so pissed and embarassed. Suddenly I feel that SKA no longer feels like a home to me. In school already like fuck then ska also treat me like that. hai.....hopefully tomolo will be better.

Rainy day.....

What a rainy day.....while it has been cooling, it was slightly too cold for us lab campers. Doh spent the whole day inside sia. Got so stressed up with the stupid database implementation. Can you believe it? Took about 3 days after half a semester to finally settle down on our database. Still, there might be changes. These three days I really think and think and think through the nights and days and think until I'm sick of thinking. Really sick ah. Luckily got some useful help from my group members. Otherwise I think I might just leave the shit there. And because of this I got stuck with my coding. I think the reason why I forgot so many things for Karate is because I think too much. Really. I also believe that someone who is too cautious will always trip and fall. Don't know why; I say this because i'm such a person. Now i'm even lazy to go for wednesday and friday trainings. LAZY, not unmotivated. Even tuesdays, thurs and sundays. I practically drag myself to SKA because I have a duty to perform there. All these projects and studies have done me not a damn miserable bit of good at all. I'm becoming stupid and slow. My memory and eyesight is deterioriating. I can't even speak a full sentence properly sometimes. I have no life. I'm also spending more money because i'm too stressed and when i'm stressed, I tend to eat a lot of junk food. Already I have no money, and I still gain flabs from these. Damn it I have a spare tyre already. It's so disgusting. I'm also thinking of signing up for the SAF poly scheme. Just get all the money and serve two or more extra years, that's all. But its not the money I'm really concerned with. I feel that the future is not bright for us. Especially us guys who have NS to fulfil. I'll definetely secure a job there. And if I can perform well, I might end up with a good position inside, and just work hard, by 40 years old I should have a good saving already. However there's a risk that I might not be able to adapt to this kind of lifestyle and waste 2 yrs, so by the time I'm out i'm considered obsolete, if that's applicable to humans. Either way also means I have no bright future. Hai. The only thing that's really meaningful now is my family, Karate, and her. Managed to see her for just a while today.....but think that's quite enough.
Think I shall stop here and continue with my project.....

So disappointed.....

Went to watch AVP just now. Gosh it was terrible. Poor storyline, lousy actors, many assumptions to be made and I could go on. Hai what a total disappointment. It was nothing it had wanted to see. In fact before watching the show I could almost guess the outcome. And I was partly right. Damn the actors could move around in Antartica so comfortably with such little clothing and they weren't even signs to show that they were breathing in a place with -n degrees temperature. There's too many loopholes in the show and frankly speaking, I would call this a comedy instead of an action movie. Cos half of the time we were laughing at the lousy ideas of the script. At one point I even thought that the predator and the female lead was about to fall in love and make love. And I think the audience heard me saying that. Anyway we would have been a better entertainment than the show lah. Omfg they were best of friends and I just couldn't believe it when the predator made a spear and a shield out of the alien carcass. The female lead spoke to the predator in English and wow it could understand! How cool. And the predator had a good sense of humour as well. Well, the aliens are slightly better. At least they did what they were meant to do. Except that I have no idea why they are seemingly stronger than the predators. Duh it's not worth the money. However, an improvement to this would be to watch it with a few joker friends. It'll make a good outing.
Hai left 5 weeks and that's the end of the semester. My project.....AHHHHHHHHH
Kk gtg watch tv already. ahhahaha.

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