Now I remember~

Yay I remember what I wanted to blog about.
It's about two dreams, or nightmares that I've had last night and the night before.
Let me start with the older one:
I can't remember where I was, or what I was doing. I only remember that I had a bad stomachache. Real bad one whereby the crap's coming off the rectum any moment and would already have if you ain't got good internal strength like I do. In fact, the crap did burst out. It could have been quite a marvel if it doesn't involve shit. My back had shit, yellowish patches of it. My legs were covered in shit like how you do a sand-bathe. And there were soooo many people around. And for some reason I started walking around only with my pants on, which was unfortunately full of shit. I remember myself saying, 'it's the staircases's fault. if i hadn't glided against it, my back wouldn't have shit." i have no idea why is it the staircases' fault. and i seem to be in TP.....eew.
Now the more recent one:
This one is simple. I was in a cubicle because I felt like shitting. And the usual toilet bowl was occupied, so I had to use the unusual squatting wc. I never liked using those kinds cos it makes my thighs look big and because i take so long to do my business, I usually have difficulty standing up to reach for the toilet paper. Anyway I was squatting, but no shit volunteered to leave my digestive system. And then I had the best fart in my life, or dream, or nightmare. It was loud and looooooooooooooong. I felt as though all the bad and naughty air inside me was about to be emptied! And it's true cos my stomach's problematic. Even though I feel 'bumpings' here and there. Feels as though a lot of gas is trying to force itself out from the stomach. It will be good to clear them. But I can't. And the dream ended.

My hair is too long and difficult to maintain now. Actually only the hair above my ears. They keep overlapping my ears and I look so dumb and unkempt like that. We've also been warned about our dress code and appearance for the final exams 2 weeks later. Should I go for a
hair-trim?

Cheers.

And still counting.....

0 days. WTH?
Today's the most busiest day for me. Started my project right when I reached school at 9.30. Had a carrot cake and Nescafe iced coffee. Both tasted funny. Yeah funny.
My part of the system is almost completed! Yay. Left about I think 2.59% more to do. But I also found out the worst news. The subsystem that I require from my friend, wasn't developed. He gave up today. And I think he started work today. I dunno whether to hate him or what, but I feel quite sorry for him when he told us he wanted to give up. At least he was working hard on it. Now my subsystem is forced to be static. Should I try to figure something out? I'm tired.....And the report we were supposed to do wasn't touched at all; haven't even read the specs. Now there's the difficulty of distributing the report. Sian.....
And today I had to see my useless supervisor for so many times. First thing when I reached school I saw him in the lab. Damn it what a bad way to start the day. Anyway it already started. So i did my project faithfully and while at it hope that he will disappear into thin air. And I also went to shit. Took my own sweet time when this cleaner lady kept knocking on the outer door. Wtf I happily shitting u there asking anyone in? I wasn't very sure whether or what to answer her cos she just kept knocking. Eventually she asked the magic question and I could drive her off. K end of shitting. Went back lab, still saw him sitting around. GrrRR. Well, he finally left the lab, and moments later I received his email saying he wants to see a demo of the system. Trying to be internet-savvy or what. Anyway I was quite pissed cos u shd have given us an earlier notice. And I had to skip tutorial for that. It's my last lesson in TP u know u fucking bastard.
Gillian boasted her web cam to me today. In it, was featured the three beauties of Engine school, Hui, Ava and herself. but i was busy with my project, so didnt really entertain her much. ahhaha. I also ordered kfc today. The phone operator was so kuku that I wished I didn't call. Took about 10 mins to complete the order, can you believe it? Maybe it was my fault that I panicked when I couldn't provide her with the address for TP, but she's still kuku. Anyway treated the 3 girls to kfc to sort of celebrate Gillian's birthday. She will be 19 come tomolo! Happy Birthday yah? But the delivery came late. And I was standing under the hot sun at the main gate, wearing black. Was afraid that the delivery guy won't see me, so I had to stand out in the open yeah. So stupid of me. He could have called. Duh must be all the programming. I'm becoming more stupid. I also wanted to demand a free delivery from him, but didnt know how to ASK of him. dope.
But quite a waste cos in the end i ate alone in my lab. ahhaah. at least i met hui.
The lab's were all almost empty by 7.30pm. But dunno why the lab didnt close at 5.30. Luckily we stayed. And also after finishing my system, i took a break and play virtua tennis again. ahahah. it was the best match ever! So exciting and good tag-teaming. hahaahah. Hai.....that's the last game of online tennis with 4 people in tp also. Had wanted to play warcraft also. but there wasn't enough time to. We finally left the lab at 9pm. And I brought back my board games. hehe. Had the intention of destroying the school's property. But eventually i gave up the thought cos i was quite tired and didnt want to think what to destroy.
Just now I was in the lift and this family came in. The youngest daughter was playing with her lantern with she looked up and saw me. I tried to smile at her. She backed away to the safety of her mother. )#YRN#FQ*N(Q#* AM I REALLY THAT BAD LOOKING????? this is the first time such a thing happened! god damn it i inflicted fear in her!!!!! without actually doing anything. omfg i need a face-lift.
im quite sure there are more things to mention today. but i can't remember. someone said im like an old man. i think i really am. everything's deteriorating. and i suddenly feel that im very short! have i shrunk? i do have a spine problem though. and i'm tired and sleepy. good thing i have Cai Chun Jia to accompany me to and fro school. been listening everyday. :o)
alright it's time to bathe. need a good sleep today. :o)

And counting.....

1 more day.....
Hmm now I'm confused. Dunno when is the actual date to hand in the system, or do we even hand in at all? Our presentation is on Tuesday, 4pm. Quite a sucky time, but if the submission date is on the presentation day, then we have slightly more time to 'improve' the system. Actually I don't even want to bother about it. Until now, it is still a fucked-up system to develop. Then on that day must come in formal wear. I find it quite retarded to wear smartly and then present some shit which i'm not proud of at all. But at least in the beginning I really did put in effort to lay the foundation of the system. Last night I intended to stay up late to do whatever I can, but felt so sleepy that I stopped and went to sleep at 2am. I also found out the problem after consulting an expert. My version of the various applications are outdated and cannot support some of the more advanced features. Wasted so much of my time and energy. And now there's little I can do at home. Gonna improve on the interface instead. Tomolo do the final report, hopefully can finish on the same day cos the lab's closing at 5.30pm. And maybe make the final changes to my rather incomplete system.
Took a technical writing test this morning. Found that I have some difficulties in writing already. I was supposed to write a letter of adjusment, and I took so long trying to figure a subject line for it. and in the end i forgot that i left it incomplete. duh. It's time to do some reading.....
It's kind of sad for me now. It'll be the last day for so many of us to be together in a lab full of games. The unity, the laughter, the joy, the food, the music, the craze, the noise, the silence when a stupid lab tech is around, the people! Oh it'll be over in a time sooner than I think. Year 3 has been the best so far - so far, because I might have a chance of retaining, hehehe.
Hmm was walking home just now, and I saw this guy, quite good-looking. He had deformed legs and was walking in a manner where I thought his legs might just give way any moment. He was on his toes, and his knees were touching each other and it looked dangerous. He must be in quite some pain. And to live with this is not easy at all. Sometimes we complain so much that we dun realise who are the ones really facing big problems. I'm toking about myself. The problems I'm facing is nothing compared to him. I tot when I saw him, what is he going to do if someone attacks him? Yeah karate mind of mine, but wth. He is a very strong person. But since I dun know him personally, i can't say whether he has a good heart or not. If he has a black-heart then i hope he gets robbed immediately.
A friend showed me this link: http://www.xiaxue.blogspot.com/ The blogger is really a talented person and I look to her as a form of inspiration to my blog. Though my blog has got totally no shit to do with hers and hers to mine, and I only blog for myself, and I dun care whether anyone reads my blog or not cos it's a record of Jady's life. yes. She shares the same sentiment with me (i think) and that's what a blog means to me. ok i'm starting to lose concentration and can't seem to write sense.
back to project. *poof*

Still counting down.....

2 days.....Muahahahahaahahah.
Let's see.....for today, i've slacked 70% and did 30% work. Fell asleep twice also. Jady can't keep his promise. But believe me, it's only for FYP that i'm like that. I'm not a bad egg. really. And this morning when I reached school, I decided to start work immediately. And was transferring files here and there when I felt like shitting. So i went to shit, and when I came back, I saw the damned SankaraRajulu Sundara Rajulu in my lab. I asked my friend to go for lunch right away and he also readily agreed. Today so many people wearing formal. oh yah it's the last week of school. Bus school was full and pretty ladies and smart guys. And I wonder how all of them can manage to get such expensive wear. Borrowed?
Anyway after lunch went back to lab and that dickhead is still there. I went over to my friend's place and wasted a bit of time there. Then finally I felt it was really time-wasting and I went back to my com. Caught a glimpse of him. I think he was waiting for me to say hi to him or something.
Well I searched the web for some free Flash intros to dl for my system. And dunno why a lot of the time I found porn instead. hahaah......ahem.
I looked really scruffy today. Hairstyle didnt come out as i wanted it again. And my eyes look tired. And my face is gloomy. And im being called Fierce again. )(R*FKN#(* YF
Had dinner at Jackson's just now. Been so long since I last ate there. The food's still alright. Had a beer also. Wish I hadn't cos i feel more sleepy now. And on the way back we saw a fat uncle lying drunk at the side of the road. He looks cute, haahhaha, and round. And there were vomit on his mouth. ugh.....and he pee-ed in his pants.
Im quite pissed, cos I dunno what's wrong with the error i've encountered. it's similar to the sample coding, but WTF IS WRONG!?!??!?!?!
Recently saw the Fun Camp advertisement. Feel like joining, so long never camping already. But need to pay, and dunno whether really fun or not. And i might find it strange to have to listen to orders from others when i'm a yr 3 student. Hmm still considering.....
K time to carry on with project again.

Counting down again.....

3 days left.
I finally did some work for FYP. Yes. A few simple lines of coding, and part of it were re-used. But better than none. At least I did something. Dunno why, recently always when I'm about to leave the lab for a meal or to go home, I will feel like doing my project. Especially today cos I wrote a few simple lines of coding, and part of it were re-used. Yes. Tomolo will be the day to decide my fate. Project development day. If I choose to slack, then it's really over for me. hahaha.
Today's the worst waiting day of all. 10am+ after my lab, I was already waiting for my friends to come school and then go eat together. Then waited and played games and read comics, and fell asleep. About 1-something I woke up and saw my friends doing their project. And they told me very fast very fast. So I decided to play some more warcraft. 1 hr later they were still on their project. And then they finished it, and went for tutorial. nahbeh. Still one guy told me very quick one. I think I fell asleep again; couldn't remember what I did with the time. Oh I think I did a bit of my project. 4pm they came back. And 4.30 I had my first meal of the day. I was farting non-stop by then. Went to Design school. Bought Chicken Chop with buttered-rice. Tasted so good. And also one of those dough-like stuff with a prawn on it, and two geng jio kuay from the malay stall. The banana cake was big enough to play shot put, and costs only 30c. ahhaahah. I was hungry.
After eating we went back to IT's canteen. Was queueing up to pay when this girl behind me made a sound like as though she's seducing some guys to mate with her. otherwise known as 'fa chun'. wahhahaahah. and she noticed that we heard it. it sounded like, horny. ahahah. I think she was grumbling that there weren't much snacks left, but why that kind of sound leh.
Hai.....for the next three hours, I was playing games until 8+ when my friend wanted to leave for dinner. That was when I felt like doing my project. ahahahah. So I wrote a few simple lines of coding, and part of it were re-used. And considered myself accomplished for the day.
Had a somewhat light dinner of sambal kang kong, sweet and sour pork, hot plate beancurd, and yew zhar kuay. And I still have Hor Fun and Yee Min for my actual dinner. So late then reach home.....
To prove that I will do my project tomolo, let me punish myself for the slacking this 2 weeks.
"I will not slack already." "I will not slack already."
"I will not slack already." "I will not slack already."
"I will not slack already." "I will not slack already."
"I will not slack already." "I will not slack already."
"I will not slack already." "I will not slack already."
"I will not slack already." "I will not slack already."
"I will not slack already." "I will not slack already."
"I will not slack already." "I will not slack already."
"I will not slack already." "I will not slack already."
"I will not slack already." "I will not slack already."
Cut and paste job. Does not seem sincere enough. Let's try this:
while(!fyp.isOver())
{
System.out.println("I will not slack already.");
if(fyp.getDaysLeft() == 0)
break;
}
Hmm definitely a more convincing try.
Why the fuck am I writing this. Better go watch tv lah.

Countdown.....

4 days left.....On Friday 5.30pm, the FYP lab closes. I'm so excited about it, though I still do not have a complete system. If we're to present on Monday, which is also the same day as the submission for final report, then we are in quite some trouble. Hope we won't fail. I think we won't. We have a system, only that it sucks. Bad grades? Definitely. I don't care. I pass, i'll go sign on for the army poly-scheme. If fail, see how's the arrangement but I don't mind also, can earn some money first. And go Karate. And regain my figure, ahhahahahah. Crazy. The future isn't bright at all.....
Today was another slacking day. I think the only thing i've done that was related to school work during my free time was the Peer Assessment, and printing of notes. Other than that, it was games. Hmm wait I also read up on Chinese Mythologies, and Mortal Kombat news. Was happily playing warcraft, and felt so pleased by my strategy, that I didn't allow any enemy to enter their portal. And I even fell asleep cos I really can't think of what else to do. When suddenly the Ancient Dragons flew past unharmed, and in an instant I have lost the game. This just gives me another reason to try out a new strategy.....oh dear.
I've been saying that I must buck up since the beginning of time and space, but everyday I fail myself. And I don't seem to be bothered by it at all. I just can't seem to work myself to it. Maybe deep inside me I have a strong hatred towards this crap project. I have no integrity. And today I learnt about Integrity in lecture. It means a message must reach the other end in its completeness. I don't have this kind of integrity, and also that other kind of integrity. What's integrity?
I'm looking forward to the exams, and holidays. Hope I can get the waiter job. Then hopefully can change a new phone. I still owe $130 for my black belt cert. Damn it I tot the belt and the cert comes together for $150. Grr total is $280!!!!! Luckily got the $100 allowance, if not also dunno how. And my father has been jobless for 1 week now. And my parents quarrel over the slightest things. Especially my father, sooooo petty. I've also inherited the male chauvanistic side of him. Life sucks. School sucks. Vacuum cleaners suck too. Hm?
I dunno what to do now. Ok i shall go and watch tv. Bubbye.